Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Angels?
I shared these two recent journal entries with the Chilean recently, and thought that the rest of you fools might be interested...
1/8/05
Wow, what an amazing and intense week. Brian Schultz passed on January 1, hit by a drunk driver while a passenger in a cab. So sad, such a tragedy. One of the best ones there is. He and Luke are partners in arms now, of course, but that knowledge serves only to temper the sorrow. Mom, Dad, Katrina, Shannon, were all amazing and conspired to get me to Chicago for the funeral, where I knew I had to be. It was amazing. The old crew, gathered for the first time without an Umphrey’s show as the impetus. It was so necessary. Migs, Chile, Danny, Pony, Shelly Kay, the Band. We felt the Love and the connection like we hadn’t in years and years. Intense.
I spent the last night with Chile Dan at his house, and it was so necessary and so amazing. We finally broke it down about so many things that had been left unsaid, and it was clear that many synchronicities were happening for HIM. He has been thinking about counseling, spirituality, death, and Life, and how they all tie together. I kept watching Chiara gasp in amazement as things I brought up coincided exactly with what they had been talking about in previous weeks. Amazing night.
The sadness is present, but not overwhelming. Much like Luke’s funeral, this one served as a focal point of regeneration for many people. Our bonds have been reestablished, and strengthened through Brian’s death. Going forward in celebration of his life. He touched so many people, and we all resolve to bring that Love forward.
1/13/05
Went to the Merc to work on Brian’s website. As I was sitting in the hidden booth, looking at pictures of Brian, thinking of Brian and Luke, I began to cry. I cried quietly for awhile, IM’ing with Katrina and explaining to her that I was crying. She asked me if I was holding the tiger’s eye she had sent me as a talisman. I told her I was and that I was rubbing it that very moment. Katrina signed off, and immediately 2 girls I don’t know came over to ask if I was OK. Their names are Mickey and Mariah. I explained what I was working on and why I was emotional.
Mickey did most of the talking, saying “I’m not sure what your relationship with God is, but we were wondering if we could pray for you. I said of course, and she layed a hand on my shoulder, and prayed out loud about God always being near. Mariah told me that God had compelled her to tell me the I was not alone, ever. I was moved and a tear slid down my cheek. I thanked them, and they mentioned their ministry to me. They operate out of the First Assembly Church.
10 minutes later, Mariah walked back up to me told me that God had compelled her to return and gift me with her Bible. It is a much-used book, recovered by hand and emblazoned on the cover with nothing but the Word “Love”.
I hugged her and she departed. I was thunderstruck. Moreso when I began to look through the Bible and realized it is FILLED with her own writing in the margins throughout. This Bible represents her spiritual history.
I don’t know what to think. Guardian angels, of course, but this Bible is something you’d expect to be gifted to a child or a disciple, if at all. It is tremendously intimate.
I’m blown away.
1/8/05
Wow, what an amazing and intense week. Brian Schultz passed on January 1, hit by a drunk driver while a passenger in a cab. So sad, such a tragedy. One of the best ones there is. He and Luke are partners in arms now, of course, but that knowledge serves only to temper the sorrow. Mom, Dad, Katrina, Shannon, were all amazing and conspired to get me to Chicago for the funeral, where I knew I had to be. It was amazing. The old crew, gathered for the first time without an Umphrey’s show as the impetus. It was so necessary. Migs, Chile, Danny, Pony, Shelly Kay, the Band. We felt the Love and the connection like we hadn’t in years and years. Intense.
I spent the last night with Chile Dan at his house, and it was so necessary and so amazing. We finally broke it down about so many things that had been left unsaid, and it was clear that many synchronicities were happening for HIM. He has been thinking about counseling, spirituality, death, and Life, and how they all tie together. I kept watching Chiara gasp in amazement as things I brought up coincided exactly with what they had been talking about in previous weeks. Amazing night.
The sadness is present, but not overwhelming. Much like Luke’s funeral, this one served as a focal point of regeneration for many people. Our bonds have been reestablished, and strengthened through Brian’s death. Going forward in celebration of his life. He touched so many people, and we all resolve to bring that Love forward.
1/13/05
Went to the Merc to work on Brian’s website. As I was sitting in the hidden booth, looking at pictures of Brian, thinking of Brian and Luke, I began to cry. I cried quietly for awhile, IM’ing with Katrina and explaining to her that I was crying. She asked me if I was holding the tiger’s eye she had sent me as a talisman. I told her I was and that I was rubbing it that very moment. Katrina signed off, and immediately 2 girls I don’t know came over to ask if I was OK. Their names are Mickey and Mariah. I explained what I was working on and why I was emotional.
Mickey did most of the talking, saying “I’m not sure what your relationship with God is, but we were wondering if we could pray for you. I said of course, and she layed a hand on my shoulder, and prayed out loud about God always being near. Mariah told me that God had compelled her to tell me the I was not alone, ever. I was moved and a tear slid down my cheek. I thanked them, and they mentioned their ministry to me. They operate out of the First Assembly Church.
10 minutes later, Mariah walked back up to me told me that God had compelled her to return and gift me with her Bible. It is a much-used book, recovered by hand and emblazoned on the cover with nothing but the Word “Love”.
I hugged her and she departed. I was thunderstruck. Moreso when I began to look through the Bible and realized it is FILLED with her own writing in the margins throughout. This Bible represents her spiritual history.
I don’t know what to think. Guardian angels, of course, but this Bible is something you’d expect to be gifted to a child or a disciple, if at all. It is tremendously intimate.
I’m blown away.
# posted by PhoenixRoach @ 10:27 AM 
